爱与被爱，很容易； 相爱就难了

真正的爱情，不是付出全部，而是让自己成为更好的人。爱一个人没有回应，与其乞讨爱情，不如骄傲地走开。在爱情里，最在乎的一方，最后往往输得最惨。找个 让你开心一辈子的人，才是爱情的目标。最好的，往往就是在你身边最久的。有时候，一个人可以在前一分钟，很爱很爱你，后一分钟就变得不爱了，原因永远不会出现，只能傻傻的接受。所以,选爱人不需要太多标准,只要这三样:不骗你,不伤害你,和陪着你...　而这样的一个人，很难找到吧。我所遇到的爱情，都只是一个圆圈，一开始很好，新鲜，快乐，很多爱，要到终点时，另一方终会累了、觉得不新鲜了、没话题说了。就这样，兜完了一圈，结束了。我相信另一方也会开始新的一‘圈’，不停的重复，直到一天成熟了，长大了，明白了什么是爱，想安定下来了，才会停止兜圈圈，那时候已是责任的爱，不时会说闷，没新鲜感的爱。这正是我要的爱。

你们都明白这个人生阶段了吗？不明白的话很大的可能就这样分手了

夫妻之间如果要维系一个婚姻或一个情感，要面对一个过程当中的失落。也就是婚姻一开始是爱情的产物，可是在进入婚姻跟真实的生活以后，你为了维持有这个婚姻跟这个让你安家、安居乐业的这个基础，我们通常要克服一个内心上的失落。你要对那种激情，或者是那种幻想的彩色泡泡要说再见，可是那个就好像是让内心一个永远的渴望死掉，你就知道，我这一辈子就是这样，就是跟这个家伙了，没有办法更浪漫更好了。但是我们之间可不可以经营出一种不一样的趣味，或者尽量在这个范围里面去活化，可它无论怎么活化，无论怎么有趣味，也还是在现实的趣味。它跟那种你每次新交一个女朋友，新交一个男朋友，那种搞不懂她，她搞不懂我，会不会在她心目中我被看成神，那种激情一定是没有。可是这个失落没有人教我们怎么去度过。
我觉得婚姻的进程里面有很残酷，就是你要对这种事情说再见的部分，那走不过的人，通常他会换一个人，假如老婆离婚了，不要他了，还是老公不要她，他就也许跟那个外遇结婚，又重来一遍。外遇的女朋友也变成老婆，他又想再往外看，但是老了，有些地方不管用了，这时候他才真正去面对那个失落... 所以每一个人都要面对这个阶段，我们何不在这个婚姻里面就把它面对，把它走过，为什么一定要一而再，再而三换到最后才知道说其实一开始....... 
我有一个长辈曾经跟我讲过，他是有一个很好的老婆，当初是那种万中选一，他是去把人家校花抢来的。结果他后来外遇了，然后外遇之后他离婚，跟外遇结婚，但是他跟我们这些晚辈讲说：“那是顺序颠倒而已。我若先跟外遇结婚，如果后面才遇到我原配，我会被她吸引，我会跟她外遇，因为那是我个人的进程没有完成...” 

Books and People

New semester has started, new semester but the last one for me.. Everyone is having a magical power to study and work harder, it is our last semester and it is time to give all out they said.. I feel that too actually, but it has been the same as last time, revision before exam.. LOL.. I have a lot of free time nowadays due to a quite blank schedule.. =) I have time to play basketball, jogging and do push up.. The most importantly, I spend more time with my friends, closed one and the not so closed one.. But what I found out? People nowadays spend more time communicate with electronic stuff than an ALIVE PERSON? laptops and phones, people they do not know they can talk like best friends.. HAHA.. Funny? But I did think of that, if they didnt talk to the electronic stuff, what can they talk to us? 


Happy Studying To ME! =)

Feelings...

These few weeks are my school holiday, should be a good one indeed.. should be? means that this holiday is not that good huh? Yes.. Something was out of my expectation.. I feel that things are changing in my life, unusual, unpredictable.. Honestly, I am trying to adapt the changes but I am missing the feelings before the changes.. I can't change things that happened already right? I will try my best to adapt.. I just can say that, I will try to be who I am at the past, try to do what I used to do, these may make me feel better =) The problem is, when I do something that I used to do, the result is not the result that I used to get.. weird huh? I am going to Bukit Merah Water Park tomorrow, wish that it would be a good one.. Haha.. I am not EMO-ING, this is just my feeling.. It will be gone soon I think.. LOL Good Night World.. 


By the way, I feel good because I have met Chung Ling friends in this holiday and we hanged out! =) Thanks to Jin Jie, Hock Sheng, Chen Yew, Edwin, Wei Loon, Sfong, Jie Ying, Sihan, Jane, Spunky and the others.. You all made my holiday a beautiful one. 

LIFE?

LIFE - is full of mysteries, is an unknown, is hard, is a threat, is a problem, is fun, is happy... ? Why there is a question mark there? Do you ever ask yourself, how is your life? Do you want a better life? My life now, quite a complicated one.. My future, is all about MONEY.. I did think of my future, I need a house, a car, a wife and some children? How much MONEY I need? LOL.. How much MONEY I can earn in a year.. That is all about life.. In life, I met people everyday, friends, lecturers, strangers.. Talk about friends in life, some did give me their hearts, I love them and I appreciate them.. Some (A LOT) just see me and talk to me when they need me.. Some change frequently, sometimes they are very good to you, and sometimes they just gone no where.. I have to say that I hate one kind of people, they are my PRIORITIES and I am only their OPTION.. I talk to myself most of the time, YES, in any conversation, I texted but there are no replies from them.. I am like a fool you know? I wrote a long conversation but what I received was just 'OK' or 'OH'.. LOL.. That is my life, do not know why there are people like this in this world, do you ever care about the people around you? Do you think for them? I did.. Sometimes, there are things that I refused to say to express because I scare there might be conflicts occur.. I tried.. to think positively, I tried, to smile whenever I can, I tried, to make everyone in my life happy.. I tried, I am trying and I will still try in the future.. For a better LIFE.. Although it is hard sometimes.. That is my life.. 

Penang Hill With A New Look!

It was 10am in the morning, my classmate from Bukit Mertajam drove to my house and our plan was to climb up to the Penang Hill for ICE KACANG and lunch and walk down the hill. Sounds great? It was not an easy job. The government put a signboard at the entrance to the Penang Hill, written 5km of slopes! And there are small signboards counting the distance you have travelled along the journey.. It was so tiring! Two of us were dying when we have climbed for 1km, we were deciding whether to go down or to continue the long journey. Haha. At last, we decided to go up with our determination! LOL.. Time flies very fast, and we have climbed for 4km without knowing, the ice kacang was a great motivation for us to go up to the hill top.. We took about 90 minutes to reached the top of the hill and I was quite shocked from what I saw, IS THIS A NEW PENANG HILL? Haha.. I can't see the food court that I used to eat the ice kacang two years ago.. But I did see a newly built wood-made building.. Amazingly, the building consists of an OWL MUSEUM (1st in Asia I think), and Food Court! The 'GROUND FLOOR' sells Food, 'BASEMENT 1' sells souvenirs and drinks and ICE KACANG! While the 'BASEMENT 2' is the Owl Museum. I was quite happy to see this improvement in Penang Hill and I keep telling my friend, our MR. LIM GUAN ENG did a good job. HAHA.. We ordered an ICE KACANG which costed RM4, and a NASI LEMAK which costed RM6 (expensive nasi lemak).. There are some changes because the Food Court has now became PORK FREE, so the old stalls selling Char Koay Teow, Hokkien Char and the other Chinese stalls have been removed. The only Chinese there are selling ICE KACANG only.. Sad case huh? Problem came when we finished our meal - we are going to walk down? or we are going to take the cable car down to Air Itam, go to Komtar by Rapid and back to Botanic Garden to get our motorcycles by Rapid. At first, we decided to walk down, but 10 seconds after the decision made, we walked to the Cable Car station.. 10 minutes to the the 'GROUND' in Air Itam, 2 HOURS to the Botanic Garden by Rapid? Long Live SLOW Rapid Penang? It was okay because I am not taking bus everyday.. Sorry to Yan Ping, Kelly and Cheng Cheng.. Haha.. We met 2 foreign tourists in the bus and they were heading to Botanic Garden too, they asked us why our bus goes round round but not to Botanic Garden, we just replied 'we are almost there' and they smiled to us.. It was quite a wonderful and interesting day because I am in HOLIDAY... Hehe.. My fellow friends, maybe we can do it again next time! THE ICE KACANG WAS REALLY NICE! =)

The OLD FOOD COURT

The NEW FOOD COURT

CNY Is Coming To Town!

Today is the last day of school before Chinese New Year, I have to work in ILAB until 9pm. I have came to school at 8.30 this morning and went back home at 1.15pm to get some stuff for my friend, I came out from my house at 3.15pm and I arrived at school at 4pm! WTH! Traffic Jam! I wonder where the cars came from, and the Penang Bridge has started to Jam in the afternoon. To those who are going back to their hometown today, Buddha Bless You. By the way, I am so happy and so excited because of the CNY this year, I don't know why, maybe it's because I was not here to celebrate CNY last year. Besides, I am taking my SEM 2 from January to June, Food Production is a very interesting subject where I can learn from our Celebrity Chef Darren Tan although I'm not good in cooking, but I'm willing to learn! LOL! By the way, our class has a different environment compared to Sem 1, no more bonding like what we used to have, help each other in homeworks and assignments, there are competitions among students but I wish it would not turn into a bad one. Last but not least, HAPPY NEW YEAR and GONG XI FA CAI! =)