Feelings...

These few weeks are my school holiday, should be a good one indeed.. should be? means that this holiday is not that good huh? Yes.. Something was out of my expectation.. I feel that things are changing in my life, unusual, unpredictable.. Honestly, I am trying to adapt the changes but I am missing the feelings before the changes.. I can't change things that happened already right? I will try my best to adapt.. I just can say that, I will try to be who I am at the past, try to do what I used to do, these may make me feel better =) The problem is, when I do something that I used to do, the result is not the result that I used to get.. weird huh? I am going to Bukit Merah Water Park tomorrow, wish that it would be a good one.. Haha.. I am not EMO-ING, this is just my feeling.. It will be gone soon I think.. LOL Good Night World.. 


By the way, I feel good because I have met Chung Ling friends in this holiday and we hanged out! =) Thanks to Jin Jie, Hock Sheng, Chen Yew, Edwin, Wei Loon, Sfong, Jie Ying, Sihan, Jane, Spunky and the others.. You all made my holiday a beautiful one. 

LIFE?

LIFE - is full of mysteries, is an unknown, is hard, is a threat, is a problem, is fun, is happy... ? Why there is a question mark there? Do you ever ask yourself, how is your life? Do you want a better life? My life now, quite a complicated one.. My future, is all about MONEY.. I did think of my future, I need a house, a car, a wife and some children? How much MONEY I need? LOL.. How much MONEY I can earn in a year.. That is all about life.. In life, I met people everyday, friends, lecturers, strangers.. Talk about friends in life, some did give me their hearts, I love them and I appreciate them.. Some (A LOT) just see me and talk to me when they need me.. Some change frequently, sometimes they are very good to you, and sometimes they just gone no where.. I have to say that I hate one kind of people, they are my PRIORITIES and I am only their OPTION.. I talk to myself most of the time, YES, in any conversation, I texted but there are no replies from them.. I am like a fool you know? I wrote a long conversation but what I received was just 'OK' or 'OH'.. LOL.. That is my life, do not know why there are people like this in this world, do you ever care about the people around you? Do you think for them? I did.. Sometimes, there are things that I refused to say to express because I scare there might be conflicts occur.. I tried.. to think positively, I tried, to smile whenever I can, I tried, to make everyone in my life happy.. I tried, I am trying and I will still try in the future.. For a better LIFE.. Although it is hard sometimes.. That is my life.. 

Penang Hill With A New Look!

It was 10am in the morning, my classmate from Bukit Mertajam drove to my house and our plan was to climb up to the Penang Hill for ICE KACANG and lunch and walk down the hill. Sounds great? It was not an easy job. The government put a signboard at the entrance to the Penang Hill, written 5km of slopes! And there are small signboards counting the distance you have travelled along the journey.. It was so tiring! Two of us were dying when we have climbed for 1km, we were deciding whether to go down or to continue the long journey. Haha. At last, we decided to go up with our determination! LOL.. Time flies very fast, and we have climbed for 4km without knowing, the ice kacang was a great motivation for us to go up to the hill top.. We took about 90 minutes to reached the top of the hill and I was quite shocked from what I saw, IS THIS A NEW PENANG HILL? Haha.. I can't see the food court that I used to eat the ice kacang two years ago.. But I did see a newly built wood-made building.. Amazingly, the building consists of an OWL MUSEUM (1st in Asia I think), and Food Court! The 'GROUND FLOOR' sells Food, 'BASEMENT 1' sells souvenirs and drinks and ICE KACANG! While the 'BASEMENT 2' is the Owl Museum. I was quite happy to see this improvement in Penang Hill and I keep telling my friend, our MR. LIM GUAN ENG did a good job. HAHA.. We ordered an ICE KACANG which costed RM4, and a NASI LEMAK which costed RM6 (expensive nasi lemak).. There are some changes because the Food Court has now became PORK FREE, so the old stalls selling Char Koay Teow, Hokkien Char and the other Chinese stalls have been removed. The only Chinese there are selling ICE KACANG only.. Sad case huh? Problem came when we finished our meal - we are going to walk down? or we are going to take the cable car down to Air Itam, go to Komtar by Rapid and back to Botanic Garden to get our motorcycles by Rapid. At first, we decided to walk down, but 10 seconds after the decision made, we walked to the Cable Car station.. 10 minutes to the the 'GROUND' in Air Itam, 2 HOURS to the Botanic Garden by Rapid? Long Live SLOW Rapid Penang? It was okay because I am not taking bus everyday.. Sorry to Yan Ping, Kelly and Cheng Cheng.. Haha.. We met 2 foreign tourists in the bus and they were heading to Botanic Garden too, they asked us why our bus goes round round but not to Botanic Garden, we just replied 'we are almost there' and they smiled to us.. It was quite a wonderful and interesting day because I am in HOLIDAY... Hehe.. My fellow friends, maybe we can do it again next time! THE ICE KACANG WAS REALLY NICE! =)

The OLD FOOD COURT

The NEW FOOD COURT

CNY Is Coming To Town!

Today is the last day of school before Chinese New Year, I have to work in ILAB until 9pm. I have came to school at 8.30 this morning and went back home at 1.15pm to get some stuff for my friend, I came out from my house at 3.15pm and I arrived at school at 4pm! WTH! Traffic Jam! I wonder where the cars came from, and the Penang Bridge has started to Jam in the afternoon. To those who are going back to their hometown today, Buddha Bless You. By the way, I am so happy and so excited because of the CNY this year, I don't know why, maybe it's because I was not here to celebrate CNY last year. Besides, I am taking my SEM 2 from January to June, Food Production is a very interesting subject where I can learn from our Celebrity Chef Darren Tan although I'm not good in cooking, but I'm willing to learn! LOL! By the way, our class has a different environment compared to Sem 1, no more bonding like what we used to have, help each other in homeworks and assignments, there are competitions among students but I wish it would not turn into a bad one. Last but not least, HAPPY NEW YEAR and GONG XI FA CAI! =)
 

HEALTH

My grandmother (80-year-old) has admitted into the Penang General Hospital due to her lungs problem caused by smoke, she can’t breathe by her own but she needs oxygen supply into her nose. I was there for the whole day, just to look after her, feed her with water and milk, and my auntie and cousin will come to take over the SHIFT at night. I wrote this, is to tell ALL OF YOU about what I have met there. About 12pm, an old couple has came to the bed beside my grandma, the wife (50+-year-old) was having lungs problem also, that was what I thought, because the whole floor is taking patients with lung problems. After awhile, her husband went back and I went to take my brunch, when I came back, she was standing in front of my grandma’s bed, I was curious, she saw me and said ‘HELLO’, and she asked: ‘ how many times of CHEMO had yr grandma gone through? ‘. I explained to her, my grandma wasn’t cancer patient but only having difficulties in breathing. She said ‘OH’ and she started to tell me her case – She is from IPOH and she got LUNGS CANCER just few months ago, she came to Penang because the equipments in Ipoh hospitals were not that complete compared to the hospitals in Penang. From here, I knew she is DAMN worrying about her first chemo, that’s why she asked that question to me because seriously, my grandma looked tired. She goes on – She said everything happens in this world will have the cause, the CAUSE & EFFECT in Buddhism, she was not a smoker, no one in her family is a smoker, she said she doesn’t understand why this happened to her, but now what she can do is accept it and fight with the cancer, she repeated ‘I don’t know why’ for many times. SADNESS in her eyes. I cant help anything but tell her that she will be ok, it’s good that we discovered it in the early stage. She said thank you and get back to sleep. I walked to the window and looked down on the road full of food stalls and people, I started to put my attention on those smokers, they are so HEALTHY now! I wonder how that auntie would think when she saw smokers with no health problems, YET. I know there might be other reasons why she got lungs cancer, but I just felt DAMN unfair and sorry for her. To those young smokers, please, stop it, I beg you! Don’t say that it’s difficult to stop! If you say this, then why you can’t tell yourself that it’s difficult to start smoking?! Please..

I wish that auntie can get well very soon!

My First Fever in The Philippines !!!

30th Jan 2011 - Sunday! Should be a nice day because i dont have class, only have basketball practice at 5pm. My head was very light when i went to bed, but my head was heavy when i woke up. I fell super cold although the fan was off. My body was warm. My nose blocked and i have to breath by using my mouth. What's going on????  FEVER!!!!! =(  The first thing appeared on my mind was...... HOME!!!!! When i was at home, there're panadols, food and everything i need when i was sick, especially MY MOM who always there for me!! Mom, I miss your 'liang cha'.. You will make it everytime I sicked... But now..... I have nothing here with me.. No MOMMY, no DADDY, NOTHING!!!!! I tahan the coldness, took my bath n walk out of the school to get my breakfast, with my weak body.... I sound very cham hor???? But seriously... very cham la... hahaha.. I took my breakfast then took away my lunch so that i dont have to come out for lunch again.. I went to the Drugs Store nearby to buy strepsil and fresh milk but bo buy paracetamol... haha.. I was back to school and review my Psychology Report which i has to present it on Monday.. Lastly one of my roommate asked about my condition, and gave me paracetamol to eat, and i got a nice sleep... Thanks to YVES SAZON.. =)  After the rest, I was feeling a bit better.. Thanks to coach who gave me a day break. =) Or else i will faint on the court.. hehe. Thanks to MS. SUSAN who bought me dinner. Lastly.... Thanks to my lovely PAU PAU who talked to me for the whole day to make me feel better.. Thank you.. ILY <3<3<3 Tough sunday for me.. haha.. To those who're studying abroad, did you experience the same thing like this? I know i have to face this independently, my mom told me that.. I'll try..... Good Night! Bye damn Sunday! =)

Past Homecoming....

18th DEC 2010.... The day i went back to my hometown.. PENANG!!!!! =) I touched down at 6.30pm, feel really good when i saw my family who're waiting for me in the airport.. I MISS THEM so much!!! The very first thing i did when i stepped into my bedroom was...... jumped up to the bed!! Thank to my MOM who had renewed the bed sheet for me.. It feels really great! =) I went out that night by car.. Saya kam tong until mau cry bcoz it has been so long i dont get to do this and i dont get to enjoy this kind of freedom... But time Flies super fast.... I'm back in Philippines now.. =( there's no turning back when you've made a choice.. I have to continue the walk on the road i chose.. for 4years ++.. My mom keep telling me to be careful in whatever i do, wants me to think of them in whatever i do.. I know they're worrying abt me every moment.. I'll take good care of myself here. =) I love you all.. <3<3<3 I missed my 15days in PENANG, christmas countdown in Gurney Plaza, morning basketball with CLHS friends, TAO Cuisine with <3Pauline<3, WAlter, Evon and Wonder, watch Thai Horror movie, TRON, Penang Coffee Island with Juniors, sembang in Gurney Drive until 2am with the company of see, go wherever i wanted to go with my mom's PERODUA VIVA!! Lastly, i wish i get to go back again in this coming summer holiday =) of course i don't want it to be 2 weeks, i want more!!! Ang Kong Po Pi... pls... haha.. For now, i'll just work hard on my studies and basketball.

TAMAT